Dreams

What a night dreams dreams and more dreams
So strange I don't think I've ever had so many dreams in one night before.
Its been so hot, And all I can do is dream
They where so real but now I don't remember them
just colours blue green and yellow
feeling panic angry scared and so very tired
Dreams are strange things
I wonder why we have them
The hot days will break soon praise the goddess

sad days

Well here we are in March and its so hot . Bracken our sweet gentle boy is dying and I have spent the last 2 days in tears its breaking my heart watch him go bit by bit. I love him so much. He had a good day last Monday but the last few days he won't get up and walk he just crys until he can see me. I know his time is almost up and we have had such fun days together my silent shadow nuserling my hand as we walk around the garden. I will miss him so much. I can't beleive the last 10+ years has gone so fast.
Andy is scaring me with his blood shot eyes and falling asleep if he holds still for more than 10 mins I pray this hard time passes soon. Life is so short Andy and I are already in our 50's when did that happen?????????

MARCH already

Feeling quite foggy today . I pulled the muscle in my tummy from lifting Bracken off the floor poor baby his body is slowly dieing. I love him so much its going to be very sad and not have his happy smiling face to greet me.
Kaye came over today and helped me do the shopping I couldn't have done it without her she's a really good friend.
I miss Andy, even when he is here I know he's not poor darling we just have to wait til his company works things out I just wish it were easiler on him I hate seeing him so tired and there is nothing I can do.
I'm very lucky to have him in my life I really don't know what I would do without him He gives the best cuddles.
My brain isn't working too good I keep forgetting stuff
Well all I have to do now is get better
Wish me Luck  :)

tomorrow

Its HOT not my fav time of the year. Much prefer winter autumn or spring. Andy's in W.A. poor darling working in factory's in this heat which its much hotter there than here.  I miss him its like someone has taken a part of me away, he will be home tomorrow night. Had a massage today still in pain nothing new there. Took Bracken to the vets he has put on 2kg from the meds but is still doing well . Took rose as well the other cats have been having a go at her over the past few days its really strange The Vet (Sara) took a blood test we find out tomorrow whats wrong if anything Lucy is going to a new groomer tomorrow her name is Racheal she lives in Dandenong. Hope it goes well. 
Feeling a little lost 

Odd Day

I feel rather odd today, I don't really know why I try to do things and I forget what I'm doing and end up doing something else or just being totally confused as to what I am doing. I have a heavyness to me today. Missing things. My moods have been all over the place I really just want to sleep more than anything Im not tired I think I just want the peacefulness that comes with sleep I have been having a hard time trying to get off to sleep very annoying. Andy went away to Perth WA last week for 2 days this week it was Albary for 2 days its part of his job I know that but it doesn't mean I have to like it. Bracken seems to be having a better day today I'm glad. Everything seems to hard to day I wonder why I feel like this. Even watching tv is too hard reading too hard what a strange day. I am missing my folks

brac

Our Bracken is dieing. Its so sad to watch him struggle to get up, he is such a wonderful dog I wish things were better for him but while he keeps going we will help him anyway we can Love our boy so much keeping my fingers crossed for a cure to old age wish me luck. Its not easy but he is more than worth it.

DEATH

We live in the land of DEATH it is nothing to be feared everything has its time and when there time has ended they go. I have a family that doesn’t seem to understand the basic principal of the land of Death. Everything on this planet is born …..lives…then dies.

How is that so hard to understand?

We celebrate Birth why not celebrate Death?

Its all the same thing

I was Born …..now I live …..later I will die.

Its quite easy to understand.

My daughter Celly believes that everything you do, can cause your Death. This is just not true, you can only Die when its your time no matter what you do.

You can make you life easier with you decisions but you can’t make yourself Die.

Somewhere along the line I have failed her .Her understanding of Death is very strange to me as with a lot of her beliefs, there must be a reason she does not understand. 

Mmmmmmmm

I must try to work out this puzzle maybe it has something to do with her need for material things??

We are Witches from a long line of witches, I have told her often maybe she doesn’t except this, that would explain a lot.