well it wasn't a very happy wedding anni my hubby bought me some really beautiful things but I hadn't left the house all day, so he got nothing. I felt really bad and so I should, but there are days that I don't leave the house. That can turn to weeks. I get ready to go and just as I'm about to leave I get a rotten feeling that something really bad will happen if I open the door. YES I do know that sounds silly but it so over whelming. I have trouble breathing, I see double or everything goes wobbly and I can't focus. I basically freak out. So I go sit down hoping if I wait the feelings will go, but alas it can take hours to stop. Its really not worth fighting it. I end up so tired I go to bed. I find the best way is to just go, no plan, no appointment and I'm ok but if I have to wait, I just can't do it . Maybe one day it will go away, that would be really nice. Sleeping is my other problem or I should say lack there of but that's for another day.
The worst thing about all this is I feel so lousy for my poor suffering hubby.
Its easy to be the one with the problem its not so easy to stand and watch the love of your life go through it.
maybe that why he was made so perfect but please don't tell him I'II never hear the end of it
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