May regrets

21 st may 2012
My hubby's in tassy its very quite here with him gone. I feel a little wobbly when he's not around, I always hope that its not putting too much pressure on him . He is such a darling I miss him something awful. Its my sons birthday tomorrow he will be 32 years old, I've not had much to do with him since he where 14 years old he went to live with his father, well really I made him go there. I don't regret the reasons at the time , but I have missed him something horrible. I often see mums with grown up sons, and my heart aches knowing I have a son who doesn't want to be around me. Well I suppose that's the price I had to pay. Cel says he's doing well and is nice to be around that makes it a bit easier to take. maybe one day I will have him back, its not looking as though it will be anytime soon.