fear and frustration

Loneliness is a state of mind. Its when you feel incomplete without that special person, that person you get out of bed for. The one who tells you silly stories and makes you laugh. Fear is when you think they may no longer be there, heart breaking insane hurt will consume you, like a fire consumes wood. best not to think about it and when he is near I don't think about it. Its when he drives away, all the crazies on the road may take him from me. Stop it Stop it. He is safely in bed now sleeping like an angel that he is. I've never loved someone as much as I love him. live for now not what might be . You must keep yourself busy, this body lets me down so much I could scream sometimes when no ones about I do scream not in pain but total frustration. Every day as I wake my 1st thought is BODY please work today I have so much to do. Maybe tomorrow :o)