oh what a day....................... part 2

Get home just after midnight my hubby feeds our little monsters, did something on the computer and while we were sitting there, we hear a large crash hubby says its one of the cats knocking down a paint tin he rights it everything fine. I go to let the dogs back in the house and stand in a puddle of green paint , what the ...........
where did this come from, hubby looking confused (soooo cute that look) an old tin that had crash to the floor moments before was leaking green paint everywhere, several things we just through away, then clean up. Only 1 cat and 1 dog walked through the green paint,  so hubby goes madly chasing the dog yelling at him to stop.It didn't work he just freak out and started to run around the kitchen and he is a big boy ( the dog) hubby finally corners him and starts washing his feet. Poor dog had no idea what was going on. meanwhile pussy cat has to get in on the act unbeknown to us she has all 4 feet covered in green paint she's now in the bath room cope with that in the morning. What poor hubby doesn't know is the cat walked all over the sofa and 1 armchair I'm saying nothing hubbys gone to bed and now I'm going to join him oh what a day!.......................

oh my what a day....................part1..

had 2hours sleep wondering around like a zombie played cards for 3 hours. Went back to bed 9am slept for 4 hours got up feeling more human phone rings (I hate phones) a very dear friend ringing me to tell me something about a book .I have no idea what she is talking about tell her I'II ring her back. conference with hubby, thats ok sort that, to find  (she has only been out of hospital less than a week) her dear sweet husband has gone up to the country (his folks farm) cos he needs a break. Leaving my friend to cope with 2 teenagers all their friends and driving them all over. There are times in my life I can half understand men but most of the time I am completely baffled.I find most of them I just dont want anything to do with there all insane!!!!
OK its baby sitting night. So have to get my head together I grab a coffee no sooner had I sat down off goes the phone (in my head I think oh what has my friend forgotten) so I pick up...........its not her Its another close friend from interstate, (some days you really should stay in bed) her husband has just taken a 10 day holiday in Thailand on his own yeah I really beleive that funny his wife had the same thoughts. He then very sweetly tells her the marriage of 18 years is over my friend not really bothered as she had planned to leave him when their youngest (who is 12yrs) turned 18. Her husband wants to set her up in a flat in town and give her an allowance. I almost choked when I heard that as they live on a 20 acre farm. my friend not being the idiot that her husband thought she was just laughted and said no way I'm not leaving ect ect ect about a 2 hour phone call
I had to go cos it was baby sitting time, spent a wonderful time playing with my granddaughter who I dont spend much time with she is  2yrs had a great talk with my grandson who is 12yrs life is very serious when your 12. finally mum and dad got back from the wedding they had been to, we headed home.

thoughts

well it wasn't a very happy wedding anni my hubby bought me some really beautiful things but I hadn't left the house all day, so he got nothing. I felt really bad and so I should, but there are days that I don't leave the house. That can turn to weeks. I get ready to go and just as I'm about to leave I get a rotten feeling that something really bad will happen if I open the door. YES I do know that sounds silly but it so over whelming. I have trouble breathing, I see double or everything goes wobbly and I can't focus. I basically freak out. So I go sit down hoping if I wait the feelings will go, but alas it can take hours to stop. Its really not worth fighting it. I end up so tired I go to bed. I find the best way is to just go, no plan, no appointment and I'm ok but if I have to wait, I just can't do it . Maybe one day it will go away, that would be really nice. Sleeping is my other problem or I should  say lack there of but that's for another day.
The worst thing about all this is I feel so lousy for my poor suffering hubby.
Its easy to be the one with the problem its not so easy to stand and watch the love of your life go through it.
maybe that why he was made so perfect but please don't tell him I'II never hear the end of it

SAD DAY

Its anzac here in australia its also the Anniversary of my mothers passing away its 12 years now I still miss her so much I often wonder "what would mum say" what would she do/ think> its also my 13th wedding Anniversary yesterday. WHAT A WEEK ITS BEEN I always remember Carol my dearest best friend who died a few years ago I miss her something awful There are things I could only talk to her about and she understood me no explaining no excuses and my brother who died last  and dad its over 20 years now You had all be together looking after each other love and miss all of you and thankyou for being in my life and making me a better person hugs and kisses til we meet again and I know we will LOVE YOU .

oh to have my body back

This is me before I got sick Dec 2010

Our daughter Chrissie, our grandson Jordan, our granddaughter Eve.

bolt from the dark blue

RMIT has just closed down the printing department which means my hubby has no job.I'm stunned, I don't know what to think or do. He's just rang and told me ,he's very upset. watch this space to see what will happen. Its not fair he's a natural teacher what will he do now. What can I do to make it better? I feel angry, sad, and bewildered  Poor darling he's always been such a good person this is so unfair. At times life really sucks. Its raining outside matches my mood. we will just have to muck along together and see what happens. something will turn up I'm sure. Well here we go along another turn in the road of life, seems dark now but I know the sun will be shining soon. Wish us well.

Our all black little girl

This is our latest cat "Goblin" She is now one (that went fast)

Saturday afternoon 21/4/2012

well here I am its not such a bad day pain in lower back and knees. been e-baying buying things to make cards hopefully I will get the energy to get there and craft. I really miss crafting , all I can do at the present is watch t.v ,go on computer , crochet . The hot flushes are doing my head in. must visit the girls I said I'd come sometime on the weekend I wish they would talk to each other it would make my life so much easier. My darling hubby's watching footy yuck (his only fault) lucky hey.

sunny tuesday

well its Tuesday I live here with my 6 cats and 2 dogs, 3 birds and one long suffering hubby whom I love very much. I'm in pain again ...whats new...
anyway its a lovely sunny day hard to believe my 2 closest friends are having such troubles in there lives. they are such beautiful women who really don't deserve whats going on and here I am so far away I can't do much but listen and try to make them feel better. I'm very lucky to have the life I have surrounded by people and animals who love me. I never dreamed my life would turn out like this, I'm so glad it has.