Not a good day SAD

Celly's gone to Cairns today so I went and picked up her car from the machanics at melbournes cheapest cars thats where james works. I didn't really wan to see him but he saw me and called out so I was stuck talking to him Its not that I don't like James it just that it reminds me how much I miss his mum Cal. I'm so sad now, and I have no one to talk to , I can't talk to Kaye she's not well I can't talk to Chris she's on another planet Ang is totally out of the question My brothers are useless at the best of the time.Andy is just so overloaded at the moment it wouldn't be fair So that leaves me all alone. Feeling very sorry for myself, Life wasn't meant to be like this Why did Cal have to go I could name a dozen or more people that could go and It would have no lasting effect on me, but Cal I miss so much and I feel so lonely when I think about all the brilliant times we HAD.

I'm just feeling sad

halloween

Its been a strange few weeks, Chrissie broke her car and I offered to help ( cure my goodwill) It ended up costing $1,000 and 5 days of hell listening to warren curse out my daughter in front of the kids (12, 3)
I really just wanted to backhand him in the face more the once. But instead I just switched the off button in my head. I've been so tired Chris and warren are still fighting as far as I know but they don't answer any of there phone. it makes me a little mental well a lot. I've been thinking alot about the past which has been making me feel sad I miss my parents so so much Andy as always has been brilliant I couldn't ask for a sweeter kinder person in my life I often wonder why he puts up with all my rubbish. But I love him more than anything and I know he loves me too. lucky me.
Angie has been popping up lately, not sure why, hope it doesn't end in disaster .
just had a great halloween had andy home for 4 days which was excellent but my back has been playing up something awful on last book of the harper series back to sookie soon

nothing to say