betrayed

kaye has been stealing from me and lying to me.
I'm such a fool I think everyone has the same values as me they dont why will I never learn this. My heart has been stomped on AGAIN. there is only one person on the whole planet I can trust, Andy and thats really hard on him. wish I could sleep and forget everything. I'm so tired body and soul. Trust no one less pain that way so over pain

alone 3rd july 2014

its the 3rd of july my mums birthday in 10 days. there are times I feel so alone lost then Andy comes home and I live again its like I'm waiting always waiting. I fill my life with with cats dogs birds and piggies. I love them all dearly. I hardly ever see my children they are grown and have busy lives like I once had. I'm not angry I understand why I dont see them I understand why my husband is missing he too has a busy life. I remember someone once said to me "your like a cork bobbing in the ocean going no where" its taken years for me to understand that. lonely floating along head stuck in yesterday, heart broken over things I cant change. not knowing how to change and when I try my body lets me down and the pain is unbearable but who do I tell ??? if I tell my kids there to busy to do anything, if I tell my husband he freaks out. there is no one I can really talk to, so I talk to myself the cats the dogs the birds and even the piggies. And I dream tomorrow will be better I'm lucky I'm loved.