DREAMS

I've not feeling to stable at the moment being plagued with nightmares the 1st night l'd lost a child and was frantic to find it but it was in a strangle little market l searched and searched but couldnt find it anywhere and was terribly upset but cont to search, l woke feeling exhausted and paniced.
last night l dreamed l was carrying around a small baby that was dieing the mother of the baby gave it to me because she was too upset and didnt want the baby to be distressed l carried this baby around a garden and lane ways my heart was breaking i could feel the warmths and the tiny bodie in my arms even as l woke it upset me so l didnt want to move or get out of bed l felt the impression of the babies body for at least 15 mins after l woke it was most distressing and that feeling has stayed with me all day.
the strange thing is l dont know either the child l was looking for or where l was or the mother or the baby or what place l was in. l wonder what it means, is it a message of the future or a wish from the past. mmmmmmmmmmm

A bit Lost

Since my mums birthday 13 july l've been feeling a bit lost. not quite knowing how to shake this feeling off. I miss my parents so much I would give anything just to spend some time with them. Lost Little Girl syndome. All any one can say "well that can't be helped" or "that cant happen" l'm not stupid l know that but it doesn't stop the longing. not been sleeping well chris and warren have been a great help mentally as well as physically. poor  celly l feel is bit lost.