its me again

23rd october 2014 thursday 9 mins to 3pm
still missing my angel trying to distract myself with the guinea pigs but l cant do much my elbow is so bloody sore it hurts all the time 3 weeks now Eric thinks l've torn something in my shoulder. l'm not good at this 1 arm crap getting more and more pissed off feeding the dogs last night was a slight to be seen half on the floor bloody arm just wont work this is taking ages left handed
just fed up want my queensland baby back only consulation is l know she's happy and health with brack and ishta gandy miss you my darlin's xxxx see you soon

goodbye my sweet Angel Ming

Ming has not been well for the last 3mths.
She kept trying to tell me it was time to go but I didnt want to listen.
she got her wing today at 2pm
It broke my heart my sweet little Angel has gone
Andy and I buried her next to Bracken in the front yard
we said our goodbyes
the hole in my heart hurts like someone has punched me
Sleep well little one I will always love you xxx

october 12th 2014

my arm is so painful l could scream. cant do anything even lifting up coffee cup hurts writing this l'm hold this arm with the other i can cope with pain in my legs ,back ect but not my head and arms hands. its so shitty. the is a disarter area (wrong spelling) lts like living in a trash bin l got outside to get away from the mess and now andys doing the same l have to somehow tidy up and not end up in a screaming heap maybe painkillers before l start it will mask the pain till lm finished it should take a couple of days andy wont notice he will just think l'm having a wobbly week mmmm must think about this plan cant write anymore hurts too much bloody arm