sad saturday 8-10-2016

went to see my brother Ross in the Sunshine hospital. the cancer is just eating away at him he knew who l was but couldn't work out who Andy was it was heart breaking. he says a few words like "drink , OK, but that's about it. so sad to see him that way. makes you wonder whats going on in his head. he lay there tinged yellow as his liver is going. you find yourself staring at him not knowing what to say, will he understand? does he even know whats happening to him. we stayed 1 and a half hours he has a head twitch its quite unnerving l'm so glad he didn't die on Eve's birthday she was 7 years old yesterday. seeing him like this makes me wonder how will l go. hope l don't just hang around for months. the weather was nice today a pretty spring day. rang Celly to see how boop is, its not looking good poor baby. he's done his best he doesn't want to leave her but the cancer is eating him up sweet boy, always so happy to see us it will be a very sad day when he goes